I screamed your name at the world last night
the sky was clear, the stars were bright
It was so fucking cold, but I didn't care
My breath was cloudy, I just laid there
My head was throbbing, my fingers were stiff
My mind was on you and how much I miss
your voice.
your name across my lips.
I sat in the middle of the road last night
I cried so hard, I'm losing this fight
I cursed and yelled,
I've lost my mind.
I was looking for you, but all I could find was
your picture.
my thoughts inside my head.
You're in my heart but it feels so dead
Someone played the guitar, he was playing brand new
the sound haunted me.
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Life in an Unstable Home by DemonicFatality, literature
Literature
Life in an Unstable Home
Sometimes in this world of hate
It's best not to participate.
For no matter how they scream and yell
I will feel nothing in my minds padded cell.
One needs not worry 'bout devotion
When you try to live without emotion,
But so great is my sorrow
As this day becomes tomorrow.
I fight a battle with my tears.
An even greater one with my fears.
And when comes time to dim the light
My sorrows scream and moan into the night.
As I lay in silence sleeping,
Trapped within a mellow dream,
Skillful shadows around me scheme,
While stars above their watch are keeping,
A nightmare ensnares me, I begin writhing,
My heartbeat races, nothing is as it may seem,
I jerk and I tremble, then I wake and I scream,
Clutching my heart as if from my chest it was leaping,
It was simply a nightmare,
A horrifying vision I saw,
Off my mellow dream shadows took their plunder,
So down again I lay, my body consumed by despair,
My nightmare left me awake, in awe,
My mellow dream had been torn asunder,
But at least the nightmare was gone.
House of cards surrounds me,
The joker staring wild,
Everything around me starts to fall,
It's crashing and I want to watch it all.
House of cards,
Breathing shards,
Paper cut and I'm dead.
Was it really something I said?
I'm dieing, I'm lying,
I hate you all the same,
I just wish I had someone else,
Other than me to blame.
I cry myself to sleep,
Wishing as I weep,
That there was something out there,
Something to stop this blank stare.
I want release from the chains that bind,
I want release from the values of my mind.
Turn my cautions away,
Leave morals for another day.
Give me my fantasy back,
I only miss what I lack
To all my watchers,
Thank you for this year of awesome support and comments. You all are amazing people and I'm so thankful that I got to talk and work with all of you. Thank you for your comments, criticism, and encouragement. I am leaving deviantart as I move on with my life. I feel that a lot of what I posted on here was taken out of context from who I really am. I apologize.
You will notice that my entire gallery has been deleted. Thank you for all the favorites, and the just shyness of 3,000 page visits. You guys are AWESOME!!!
I want to thank a few individuals who made it all worth while. ~Avry (https://www.deviantart.com/avry) :iconheavensdemon: :iconC
Hey you don't know me (which is probably a good thing for you!!)
But I just wanted to say that even though you have left DA, DA will never leave you. Trust me, I have left so many times - in fact I'm supposed to not be here now!
But it takes hold of you and you can't let go. So if you ever come back, I will have the opportunity to say "I told you so!"
Yeah I'm going to go before I embarrass myself further...